The last few days in a job are always a bit strange. I feel as if I don't have a great deal to contribute anymore and, with the enthusiasm quotient well down, I'm certainly not about to embark on any massive new projects. Perhaps the most useful thing I can do in the last few remaining days is catch up on a bit of backlog work which, if nothing else, will allow me to tidy up a few loose ends and keep the pressure of my former colleagues when I've finally gone. When I've left previous jobs my emotions have ranged from genuine sadness to sheer joy. This time it'll be somewhere in between. I'll be sorry to leave a familiar place and some rather dear colleagues but my joy at having a new challenge ahead of me heavily outweighs any sense of loss which I'll feel. Besides, there are more than a few friendly faces where I'm going, at least half a dozen on the workforce that I can count as former colleagues in previous jobs so it won't all be strange and overwhelming.
One final minor insult was the company's decision not to give me a Christmas bonus - because I'd resigned. It's not a massive amount of money but the rigid application of the bonus scheme rules speaks volumes about the corporate style. While the company can think very quickly sometimes, at other times it just gets totally bogged down in a mire of bureaucratic indecision and a lack of positive action. To say that the company is loathe to change working conditions (both salary and rosters) and remain competitive would be an understatement. Many senior managers in the company acknowledge the problem but there's some sort of lumbering corporate inertia which means it won't happen until it reaches crisis point - breakdown maintenance rather than preventative maintenance from a human resources perspective, if you like.
And that pretty much wraps up 2005 ! Another little anniversary to celebrate, it's four years since I arrived on site to start work. I expect we'll have a few drinks tonight to welcome in the New Year although I doubt I'll see it through until midnight. Happy New Year one and all !